And Then I Say Quits…!

I’m convinced finally that it’s time to put my pen down or rather stop clattering my fingers over the computer keys. Yes, I’ve decided to stop writing here or anywhere with immediate effect. Therefore, effectively, this is my last piece here and wherever it figures. I had already indicated my doubts earlier on this platform. Now, all the doubts are in the final process of getting doubly confirmed. The reasons are both personal and professional. The personal reasons I’ll avoid, because it might be interpreted as passing on the blame; I take the blame squarely on my shoulders and this is my very own decision. The professional reasons are more important and definitive in the emerging scenario of a ‘failed writer’ which is not at all uncommon across the world.

 

The basic professional reason is that nobody reads my writings, most of them just surfing or watching briefly or passing over accidentally. I have been trying very hard indeed to write across a range of subjects to make these interesting for my readers for many years, and since I always used to laugh a lot, I thought of writing more and more humorous and fun pieces. But as a professional writer (at least I thought like that) I failed miserably to grab the readers’ attention or interest; even for the funny stories I think I am the only person to find those funny. Of course, I have to make a few concessions to a few friends who may have given their good comments/reviews out of love and goodwill. 

Ditto for my two books on humorous stories that I consider now as my foolish, egoistic and wastefully expensive indulgences. Besides, although I was successful in monetizing this site perhaps due to the low-quality traffic or no ‘reading’ readers I could not cross the main stumbling block for months. So, I decided to remove the ads also from the site.

 

As I look over my life at this fading point, I think I have been a failure too in regard to doing justice to all my relationships—as a husband, as a son, as a brother, as a colleague/friend, as an in-law and so on—as far as taking the responsibility is concerned. Perhaps, God has spared me of more failed responsibilities by not giving us children. This makes me feel very sorry and guilty, particularly for my wife, and for all others some of whom have been an integral part of my existence. 

There is hardly any time to make amends now; but I’ll definitely give it a try in the days remaining. Also, I'll spend my remaining days devoting myself fully to domestic work, book-reading and watching movies. Rest assured, this is a decision, a painful one too, but not a depression of any kind. In the meantime, I’ll allow this blog to go on, because my wife has a lot to write about, and that it may perhaps still have some archival values. And it’s not going to cost me much either. Goodbye then! And thanks for everything!

(I apologize! The ads are still coming! It seems I have no control over them as anything else!)